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yeajimmiboi
I'm a part time Drummer, Composer and full time idiot. Haha. You need anything just message me and I will get back to you as soon as possible. Thank you.

Age 36, Male

City College Plymouth

South West UK

Joined on 5/9/09

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Finding Yourself

Posted by yeajimmiboi - September 25th, 2010


I feel so weird like I'm myself but I'm not
Like there's nothing left inside except rotting grot
Like the last few years have all melted away
I wonder if existence will let me stay
The world seems too be a large mental slur
Something is making my spine start to burn
Like a darkness full of red, a heart full of right
A head slowly losing the sanity fight

I can't explain what is happening
It feels like this has happened before
I'm scared that one day it won't anymore
Coz something is happening to me
Something deep inside
And with this case of fear
My soul cannot hide

The rage burns strong as my mind tries too resist
As if hatred itself had come along and kissed
My heart and blessed it with anxiety
My soul and blessed it with shame
My charisma and blessed it with longing
My body and left it without a name
Now all I seem too do is want too gaze up too the sky
So try understanding yourself, one day you'll understand why

I think I know what is happening
It feels like I'm starting too change
All of my objectives seem to be re-arranged
Coz something is happening to me
Something deep inside
And with this case of self redemption
My soul cannot hide

The day starts too get easier like the sun eases the rain
All the strange feelings I have seem too be the same
The voice inside is telling me to man up and live
And reap the rewards and benefits that life gives
As I listen too the voice it all starts too make sense
"Your meaning is too help others" it says to clear the suspense
So if you felt like me, a zombie feeling lost
Look down inside yourself, you'll gain more than it will cost

Now I know what is happening
I have now started too change
All of my objectives have been arranged
Coz something has happened to me
Something deep inside
And with this case of relief
My soul won't need to hide


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